I haven't been like that for awhile. I've been weird. So have you. I've been in love and I dunno where you are. I'm scared that you're on that "other Page" and i'm always worried about where I step. I have never been this way because I have never loved anyone as much as i love you. I don't wanna mess up this thing that I imagine having for the rest of my life. ... But i know that it is my worry that keeps us torn. I hate the way we avoid the harder conversations and how we fill voids with sloppy kisses.
I hate how I want you to hold me soooo bad. I hate this feeling of needing to be selfish and needing you near. I miss the nights were it felt equal. Where I didn't care as much.
Goodness.
I used to pity the guys that had to deal with the "MUSHY" girlfriends... haha now I'm turning into those saps and I hate it. Love is crazy! hehe crazy crazy crazy.
"I just called to tell you the stars are beautiful tonight"
xoxo