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I don't think you really know how it makes me feel. I feel sick to my stomach. I hate the way I act. I hate the way you act. I hate how it is always you you you. You sad, you annoyed, you hurt. THen you turn it around. All about me me me me. Me being annoying, me being depressing, me leaving you, me destroying our relationship.
What is it that you want? I already promised you I would try to be the woman you fell in love with. I guess I have to promise myself first. But when I take you out of the picture... I feel like I have nothing left. I have to realize I have ME left. Me minus you... leaves me. I need to realize that and figure out that I'm still the amazing person you think I am and I'm still the wonderful person I want to be. I'm just so sick and tired of looking at pictures and not remembering what it felt like... to love you and be loved by you. I can't...
