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I wish I had someone lonely to be with right now. As sad as it sounds, I want to feel that vulnerable person next to me. I want to feel person's body shake with loneliness so that I feel better about how bad I feel. I wish I could hold that lonely person and wipe away her warm tears. I could then laugh at how many more tears that lonely person has than I have. I'm sick like that right now. I want to use someone like I feel used. I guess I'm just trying to propel this insane, systematic cycle. I want my turn to be over, moving on now to the next victim, so I can be okay with myself again. I just want to believe that I'm not that bad of a person. But no one seems to be able to prove me wrong, and I don't hold much stock in words.

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