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Today, I tried not to break my promise, because today it wasn't about another person. It was just about us. I was so excited and happy to be with you for breakfast yesterday, no matter how short our visit was. But now matter how much I kissed you and laughed and smiled and jumped your bones... you thought we were "wasting time." I don't think you know how much that hurts. I'm being everything you wanted me to be and it still isn't perfect for us.
I can be happy away from you, but only if I am happy with you. I just want to be held tonight and there is noone here who will log on when my phone doesn't work... or tap on my window when you are just seconds away. I'm going to try harder tomorrow to pretend all this didn't happen and pretend I don't feel the way I do right now. Because I promised.
